July 30, 2012

Preparing for Deployment

Firstly I'd like to say a thanks to 
marine parents

Today has been such a drag. I didn't go to my Massage School because I have a 
doctors appointment. I'm secretly hoping that I'll get to see baby Carter  on an ultrasound
but I have my doubts and am thinking in the next four weeks I will.
I hate to complain about being away from the hubby because I'm not the only one. 
It's just that I'm not used to the separation. As hes preparing for his upcoming deployment he's always gone
Most days I'm fine, but some days I fall into a funk. I miss him being gone in the present moment, I'm missing him being gone when his deployment comes up and I miss him for baby Carter. 
Carter will be so new and young to this world, he won't even realize his daddy has left to fight for our freedom. 
But I can't help but let it get to me that they will both miss a huge chunk of each others lives. 
But I supposed that's military life for ya. 
It will be one picture after the other and a grand count down! 

I really can't keep thinking about something that's not even happened yet. 

July 29, 2012

Babies Everywhere!

So I don't know if its just because I'm pregnant myself now, but today I was at the store and it seemed 
that there were at least a pregnant woman in my eye sight at all times! I think its funny how I'm 
always noticing other ladies and their soon to be or already children! 
It makes me anxious to get big and be showing like them.
Here's a little update on my pregnancy so far:
17 Weeks
1. What name did you and your spouse call your baby before you knew the gender?
 When we found out I was pregnant, I was already 10 weeks along, and then we found out the gender at 15 weeks. So in between that time we were still getting used to the idea of becoming parents and telling everyone the news. I guess we never really had a nickname for him.
2. When did "Oh-my-gosh-we're-having-a-baby" really sink it?
 There were a few different "oh my gosh" moments! The first would be when I took the pregnancy test. That was the biggest because we were expecting it to be a yes, but at the same time it was the unknown that surprised us! And then the first ultrasound when we saw our baby and heard the heartbeat! That really just set everything into stone that it was real, I have a living little being inside me. 
3. When you think of yourself as a mom, what's the first thing to come to mind?
I instantly think of my baby. I think of the new-found bond I'll experience that can't even be described in words! I am beyond excited to expand my family and have our first child!
4. Is your nursery complete? What's the theme and what do you have left to complete?
 NO! We've bought the paint and have a general idea how we want it, but the spare bedroom still has to be gutted. Its packed full of my husbands military gear right now, so we have a lot of rearranging to do before we can even start painting. And since I'm not very far along yet, I only have 1 or 2 baby items. The funny thing is, since the hubs is deploying right around the time of birth, I'm going to be staying with my parents for 7-8 months; so we have two nursery's to create. But my mom has packed full ideas for the nursery at their house! 
5. List 5 qualities you hope your baby will possess:
1. Charm     2. Silliness        3. Loving       4. Outgoing        5. Brave 
6. What's your ideal labor experience?
I suppose quick, and easy. And most importantly problem free! It would be ideal if Carter (the baby) decided to come a little early that way he can meet his daddy before he leaves over seas. But a healthy baby is the most important! 
7. List 5 things that have changed in your relationship with your spouse since you've been pregnant: 
1. We respect each other more        2. We fight less!           3. We are the most in love we've ever been            4. We are working as a team to clean the house and prepare for the baby        5. We don't just live day to day anymore, we talk about the future longgg down the road
8. List 5 things you think will change once your baby arrives:
1. I will be more aggressive, and have mother instincts        2. I'll find myself getting frustrated with people who don't understand motherhood           3. I will experience a new type of exhaustion lol!             4. I will be a cleaner person and more organized                 5. My entire life will change and I'll just be a new person 
9. Where do you think you'll be when you go into labor? Why?
I either think I'll be in school because my final classes are right up until I'm 38 weeks.. (which I pray this won't happen because I drive 1.5 hours just to class every weekday) or I'll be home, because after I'm done with school, I'll just be hanging out at home with the hubs! 
10. Have you been talking to your baby? Playing music?
I'll talk to him when I'm not feeling good and its him. But mostly he probably listens to music because I always have some type of music going! 
11. In what ways do you hope your baby is like your spouse?
I would be proud to have a son like my husband! He is committed to what he does, will always have my back and do whatever it takes to be a protector and a provider. And he's my best friend. I'm proud of the man my husband is and I'd be proud of my son too! 
12. In what ways do you hope your baby is like you?
I've always been known to do what I want no matter what anyone says.. Ex- I got married while still in high school, I dropped out of Business School for Massage Therapy, I don't back down in a fight. I may be a bit knuckle headed, but I'm happy of my don't give a shoot attitude. I don't want anyone to ever be able to talk Carter out of his dreams. 
13. How long will you wait for the next baby, or if this is your last one, why/why not?
The hubs wants to try for another one after he gets back from his deployment, which would put Carter at 7/8 months. I on the other hand wouldn't mind waiting a few years. But I supposed we will just see what happens. Carter will not be our only though. 
14. What kind of grandparents do you think your baby will have? 
Amazing! My parents are going to be a major part of Carters first year, seeing how we will be living with them. This will be the hub's parents first grandchild, so I know they are super excited too!
15. Who will be with you during labor? Who will visit you in the hospital during your recovery? 
It all depends on when I have him. If I have him on my due date, my husband will be gone already so it most likely will just be my mom and then we will make the trip up to NY after we get out of the hospital. If Carter comes early, then my husband will be in the room when I give birth and my mom will be visiting as soon as she gets down to NC. 
16. How much will you tell your baby (child, teenager) about your past? Why/why not?
I'll be open with him when he's older. There are some things he doesn't need to know, but I want him to know my life with his dad. And my own life as a child. I also want to teach him right from wrong with some of my own experiences. 
17. Do you have any hopes for your child's activities? (Sports, academics, school preference, activities, etc)
I wish for my son to do well in whatever it is he does, weather it be college, military, or work. I plan to get him into sports when he's little and give him a wide range of opportunities and if he doesn't like them then that's his decision. The hubs was a wrestler his entire school career and hopes for Carter to follow but nothing he doesn't want to do will be pushed on him.
18. When will you tell your baby about the birds and the bees?
Since he's a son, I'll probably talk to him a little sooner. But who knows I'm young and don't plan on having that discussion for a while! 
19. And finally, Be annoying! What "advice" do you want newly pregnant women to know?
I'm not even half way through my own pregnancy yet, so I can't put much advice out there. But I've noticed when I sit around and do nothing all day, I feel tired and crummy. So get up and still be active, eat right. You and the baby will feel great! 

July 10, 2012

My Little Lemon

We are officially in the 2nd trimester!
14 Weeks, 3 Days

Today was a pretty crazy day. The hubs and I got back from a too short vacation up in NY with both our families. I was getting back into the swing of things, getting ready to start my new classes. Well, after an hour drive and a little confusion, turns out I missed the phone call that class was canceled until tomorrow. 
So instead of bumming around all day, I decided to see if I could make a pop in appointment with Jacksonville 4D Fetal Photo.
If any of you are familiar with the Jacksonville area, I recommend them! 
They were able to get me in 4 hours I made the phone call.
I went hoping I'd be able to be told the sex of the baby, but knowing I had slim chances seeing how I just entered the 2nd trimester. And I was warned that well before the ultrasound began.
Well, let me tell you, I did not waste a single penny..
David & Darlene were able to tell us the sex within minutes. 
And there are no if's or maybe's... clear as day was my little man's pride and joy...

So the hubs and I have clearly already bought paint, and made our announcements! We are proud to say, we've settled on a name (well we've been set for a while now, just waiting to find out the sex)
Carter Jaxon
So from here on out, we pray for a happy, healthy pregnancy! 

June 29, 2012

We've Expanded Our Home By Two Feet

So as it turns out, its been almost five months since I last blogged. What amazes me is that in those few months many changes have occurred that will be life long. 
To start, I began Massage Therapy School. With that, I plan to start doing a weekly blog about the benefits, modalities, and everything in between of massage. Hopefully in the next few years I'll be writing about my own business... dreams and goals!
Mid-way through school the hubs and I found out we will be expecting a little addition to our family come the new year! There is so much to plan and prepare for our little one. I'm 13 weeks, and as so as we find out the sex, the decorating will begin! If anyone has any ideas or tips for a new momma I'd open to hearing them!

With all the good news, its expected to have a little bit of bad news. The hubs is going to end up deploying a bit after the new one is born. We're both a bit disappointed he's going to be missing much of baby's start to life, but we're also blessed that he's been given this opportunity. 
I welcome myself back into the blogger community and will keep everyone updated!

February 02, 2012

A Thousand Years

Back to linking up with Goodnight Moon.

This is for you Joe, no matter the distance, fear, and tears
I'll love you for a thousand years. 

"How can I love when I'm afraid to fall.
 But watching you stand alone all of my 
doubt suddenly goes away somehow... 
And all along I believed I would find you. 
Time has brought your heart to me.
 I have loved you for a thousand years. 
I'll love you for a thousand more."

February 01, 2012

3 Months

Has it really been three months since my last blog? 
Not that I did very well with the whole everyday or once a week blog anyways. 
I've come to realize I want to be a great blogger. I want someone out there to read what I have to say and make them smile, or better them somehow. I mean that's the whole reason I got into it. Different people would inspire me with their words and stories. Maybe someday my story will be a great one to share.  But I guess for now I'll live in the present and try to explain whats been going on in the last few months. 

November: Thanksgiving down here with my family. Totaled my car... but thanks to the lady who ran into me I got an even nicer car. And no one was hurt, thank god. 

December: Christmas with Joe's family then up to NY to visit my family. Sometimes its hard being so far away from all our family... but then I've realized I like being a few states away. It's like a vacation every time I get to go home again. And who doesn't love vacations. 

January: Had a blast on New Years. Finally explored NC and went out dancing! 
Celebrated my birthday- am I really still only 19. I know everyone says don't wish it away, but when you live near a military base and all your friends are 21+ I think I can say I would be alright skipping the next two years.
February 01, 2012: I'm having a common life crisis. I don't know where I'm directing my life to go. College just doesn't seem to be the thing for me. At least not when I don't even know what I want to do. Actually I do know what I want to do, but for the past three years I never really thought about it. I myself want to join the military, but after I met Joe I thought no way would he ever let that happen. But the past few weeks I've been really looking into it and have decided I can have both my family and be in the military. Sure being a dual military couple is going to be hard, extremely hard. But I know I can and will put everything into making this work. I just have to decide what my next step is. I'm treading with caution. I want Joe to be accepting and open to this. He opinions matter very much to me though, so nothing will be taken lightly. 

That really sums up in short my life as of lately. 
I'm still trying to get the hang of the whole stay at home being a wife thing. 
Its not an easy transition to go from high school girlfriend living with mom and dad to college student running the household of a husband and two dogs. But I'm getting the hang of it.