Inspiration

Okay, so I credit Facebook for me stumbling upon this video. I was so amazed by it I just couldn't help but share. This lady took a picture every day for 4.5 YEARS! Talk about commitment. Obviously she changed over those years, but she kept the same pose for each one. Lately I've been trying to find something to inspire me and will make me feel a little more accomplished even if its a simple project or takes years to accomplish. After watching this I think it would be awesome to just document my life every day to see how I really change over the years. I'm also really interested in doing the Day Zero Project, I just have to find time to really think about what 101 things I would want to accomplish... which turns out to be quite difficult. 

So anyways, here's the video...

A little pick me up

One thing that never fails to brighten my day, Youtube videos. Its a bad habit, but I can spend hours searching singers, vloggers, movie clips, tv shows, just anything that I find funny.

Honestly, I'm not a huge fan of this movie, or the song. But I just love this video! 

And then reality sinks in

Lately I've been reading a lot of different blogs, hoping to get some ideas of how to better my own. I came across funny ones, creative ones, and then recently I came across a few sad ones. Ones about broken hearts and death. They really got me thinking about my own life and how much I really wish I could take an hour drive and be with my family. Two years, two months ago yesterday my sister was killed by a drunk driver. I'll never understand why God allowed him to walk away without a scratch but my 18 year old sister had to die. Everyday I miss her more and more. Its not fair that I got to get married, buy a house, and shes never going to experience any of this, or physically be here for any of it with me. Expressing my feelings about this has always been hard for me. I tried to not let anyone see the hurt I held inside, I couldn't bare seeing my parents in such pain and let them see my own. Eventually time went by and I still keep everything to myself. Eventually I spiraled down so fast I didn't know how anyone could ever help me. Slowly I'm learning to express my feelings, bottling everything up only lead to big breakdowns. My heart breaks every time I read about someone else going through a loss, but part of me feels like everything will be alright, that I'm not the only one trying to re-find my life. In no way am I blogging about this to have people few feel sorry for me. Its my way of letting my emotions out, and in hopes that someone will hear my story and do things to prevent accidents like this. I am so thankful to have the family, friends, and husband I do. Without them I would not be where I'm at now.  

MilSpouse Friday Fill-In #1 and A Taste of Christmas

Well I know its technically Saturday now, but when I first started this it was still Friday... 

1. A word that always makes me laugh is actually an inappropriate word to be posting on a blog. It comes with a funny story of not knowing the meaning and embarrassing myself in front of everyone.

2. If you looked in my refrigerator right now, the oldest thing you’d find would be  a tub of yogurt... I bought it the day after we moved in, and have since opened it. I guess after you move some of the foods you loved and craved change. 

3. If I were written about in the newspaper today, on the front page, the headline would say Crazy Lady with Christmas decorations already! ...

4. The last movie I saw was Super Troopers. Never fails to give me a good laugh! 

5. The best thing that happened to me in the last few weeks was finding out that our family's will be coming here for Thanksgiving! My first Thanksgiving dinner I've ever hosted.. eek :) 

To add onto yesterdays post and #3, today Joe and I were at wal-mart grocery shopping and decided to go in the outdoors section and look at the display of fake Christmas trees just to get an idea of what we would want. Originally we were going to get a real tree but its still undecided how long we will be in NY for the holidays. Anyways I saw the BEST tree ever and just had to get it, and of course as soon as I got home I was putting it together. Then Joe comes out with our only two Christmas ornaments we own and put them on our tree.

And over the past few days we have been trying to think of gifts we could make our family's that are inexpensive but cherish-able. I came across this on a craft website and decided its simple enough to do and with the beach being 10 min away, we can make the things inside a little more personal and special. Instead of fishbowls, we are going to use tall canning jars. This is my first craft project I've done in a long time! I feel like such a kid again and all giddy. The best part... Joe is equally excited!